"When will we wake up from this nightmare called reality?"

Ok so I haven't been on this for a while.

Well not much has really happened. Wait..now that I think about it a lot of things has happened.

Let's see...Oh! I got married.(on facebook that is) LOL His name is Bhargav. He is Indian and lives in the Netherlands. He's moving to California sometime in the December. ^_^ He's a sweet guy. I talk to him a lot. He even got me into old school rap. He's in a movie called Omadief (Grandma Thief). I can't wait to see it.

My best friend Sengmolicka's Birthday was on the 26th of July. We went out on the old port and bought cake. But you see she REALLY wanted to go to a real pastries shoppe so I went out the day earlier and tried to find one. I went through every dark ally in the old port and I found SHOE STORES. That was completely useless.

About two days later (July 29) I went to hang out with dreamsofsouls and her 2 sisters. It was fun. We hung around the old port and talked about stuff. We even went to a Thai buffet. (Some of the food was REALLY good but sometimes some of the food makes me a little bit queasy) At 1:00pm dreamsofsouls had to go to her dad's house. I didn't know her sisters very well but I got along with them. (At least I think so...I'm not really sure what they think of me other then the fact that I'm loud..(I swear I'm working on that!) ) Anyways,I didn't want to go home. (annoying father,bratty sister,and naggy mother) I needed a break from all of that. So I hung out with dreamsofsouls's sisters for that afternoon. Her sister (I'll call her Angelique) was much nicer then I excepted. I suppose it has to do with the bond they now share.

Angelique is very interesting. She is wicken and considers herself a vampire. (Although I wouldn't be surprised since her eyes are like 3 different shades of gold. SO KEWL!) But she's fun to talk to. You should never judge a book by it's cover!

Let's see..what else? *thinking* *thinking* *Thinking too much a head explodes*

Oh! My dad is becoming more of a bother. I want to get a job. (and I even found some places that might accept me!) But he says that he doesn't want me to. That made me SOOO mad! My mom is encouraging me to get a job. To get some experience. But my dad is still saying NO. In my opinion I think it's because my sister and I will be handling our family income. My dad can't stand that. I'm just thinking "If he cares SO fucking much about us WOMEN getting the money that we need to survive then why the HELL doesn't he get off his ass and DO something about it?!" It's true. My dad doesn't have a job. (at least not in the summer,only winter) And he's constantly complaining about money but he doesn't do ANYTHING about it!

He also complains that I don't want to be with the family as much as my friends. OF COURSE NOT! Frankly my friends have given me more love then you have given me over the last 3 years of my life! They try to understand me. They try to make things work out. They make me laugh. They make me happy. I LOVE being near them. To make it completely cheesy I guess I would say that they are my personal guardian angels.

Quote:
He that thinks himself the wisest is generally the least so.
C.C. Colton

Today my mom came back from her trip!

I didn't realize how much I missed her until I realize how long she was gone! (about 2 months) But it seems like she didn't miss me much. When I went to get her at the airport she barely looked at me. She told me to get her luggage. When my baby sister was going to her she smiled like she owned the world and raced to her. I was left behind to get the luggage with my dad. My dad said he could handle it. So I went to give my mom a hug. She didn't hug me back. I understand that. I mean, when I was younger she never really liked physical contact. I spent most of my time with my dad. Because I know he'd hug me back. But I figured this one time she'd hug me back. I mean she hasn't seen me in a while I thought that maybe she'd miss me. If she did miss me, she definitely didn't show it. In fact she almost completely ignored me.

I wish I was little again. She always paid attention to me. She'd give me a hug at least once a week! I really loved it. I wish I was the youngest again. Don't get me wrong. I'm not wishing for my little sister to never have been born. I may say some horrible things about her. But she is,none the less, my younger sister.
Unfortunately,I care for her. I would never want her to be gone.

In my culture the oldest gets the most respect. Whereas the youngest is spoiled. But where does that leave the middle child? What is she/he given? Of course I have been somewhat spoiled 9 years of my life but it wasn't too serious. Now that I am the middle child I will always be compared to either the oldest or the youngest. I will not get as much attention as the youngest or the eldest. So where does that leave me, I wonder? I suppose it will be fine. I'll grow up and forget about this. I'll be fine. I'll just suck it up and move on. Can't get any worst,right? ^_^

quote:
Suck it up and move forward. Better things will get to you eventually.
 -Me

OMG MY BLOG IS ALMOST COMPLETELY PINK!!!!!!


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(I meant to put this up as soon as I finished my background but it wouldn't let me blog for some reason)

Oh I found this out today it was also Musuda Takahisa's on July Fourth! I FAIL AS A FAN OF NEWS!!!!!!!!! :'(
oh well better late then never.

Jin Akanishi. I love your music! And from what I've seen from your personality on many videos I think I would really love you as a friend! ^_^
(I highly doubt you'll ever read this)